I’ve noticed that these moments seem to happen often: an overwhelming calm that appears out of nowhere, sometimes on an evening just before a major change you didn’t even know was coming.
Sometimes, that calm before the storm brings a brief storm, followed by clear skies and a new beginning.
And sometimes, it’s simply a quiet moment that you can’t find the words to describe.
I’m reposting this because I’ve always been a huge fan of spooky, creepy, horror movie season. I feel like I long for it throughout the year. Whether it comes from watching horror movies with parents as a child (on TNT or USA channel), or just the entire vibe of fall in general; regardless started a video series a while back, haven’t updated in a while but still enjoyed making them.
I posted on TikTok and other social media…and here. It’s different than my other vid series’…this is darker/fever dream/spooky season-ish. The other side of Joe.
Its a weekday evening and the moon is full, a strawberry moon if we are attempting to properly name it. Although its not always obvious, I am an introvert and over the years have learned to embrace it beautiful moments. There are times though, I get the urge to be in social environments to just absorb the energy and observe, with no concrete plan…just to plan to be present. I usually end up with a soundtrack playing in my ears and “People Watching”. Simple as that.
Im a very curious person by nature and seeing all of these lives cross each other in these social environments gets me thinking, wondering about the destination of these people, what they are thinking, and what is driving them in that moment. I filmed and wrote about those thoughts on one strawberry moon evening and put together a short video:
I knew what I was feeling before I started writing the narrative poem that accompanies the video below.
I captured these clips while sitting next to the person it’s written about, and having her there made it easier to turn those feelings into words. I recorded the voiceover in our apartment while the dinner I made for us baked in the oven.
Usually, when I’m creating, I’m alone. This was new territory. Sharing the process with someone instead of reflecting on it afterward changed everything, and I loved how it turned out.
There’s something about certain days that feel special for no obvious reason. The way they feel, the way they look, even the way they taste. Ordinary moments become extraordinary…
I tried to capture that feeling in this video.
Those cold stormy days appear in my life differently these days…I’m not intertwined in the emotions they bring out of me. I embrace the emotions they bring out of me. Now, I can love them more…a new appreciation. A true shelter from the storm. I put those short thoughts in the video below. A short and sweet realization:
It’s been an odd few months…an odd year really. I fell in love with someone that compliments everything that I need in life; and after college graduation next month, we have a few months together throughout the summer and she leaves for New York City.
We’ve had talks about me going along and what comes next. I lived in Brooklyn for 2 years, years ago and I know how big of a transition that is. Right now, I’m finally finding my stability in life and I feel it’d be detrimental to relocate with someone I love right now. Different goals, different mindsets…
The decision was made months ago…to make the best of what we have and to keep in mind what has to happen. But we grew together fast. And as the time grows closer we both feel the dooming future breathing over our shoulders. I wrote this to express how it feels. I don’t have an answer to where this is all going but I know the feeling I get while in her presence…makes these moments difficult to figure out.
I feel the past year has been a tumultuous at times and based on previous experiences…it may seem like. Bad thing. In reality it’s been a year with the most self growth and all around productive times I’ve experienced. I’ve established a new path that sets me apart from where I began.
It hasn’t been easy and honestly there are plenty hurdles and teaching moments that will present themselves in front of me. I’m currently back in college, working with great company, and in a relationship that compliments the best parts of me. Yesterday, it was a gloomy Monday and the spring showers reminded me how I felt about spring rain. I wrote this short narrative poem and filmed this outside my work.
Make the best of the day. Growth isn’t accomplished by staying stagnant.
Although short, this is my love letter to Denver and Colorado in general. No matter where I’ve visited…my heart has always been here. I wrote this voiceover video with the city’s new soundtrack called, “She Go By” by Where.t.at
Take a listen to the track and watch my narrative video here:
I’ve been working on getting more comfortable in front of the camera and expressing thoughts about the world, from my view. I initially started making the videos and sharing my thoughts through the voiceover videos. But these are a few videos I’ve created just to learn how to share myself in a more immersive way.
I feel like there are always questions inside of ALL of our heads and they are never answered…or even asked at all.
Does that mean these questions only surface when the world is burning down around us?
I wrote, filmed, and recorded this video over a feed at a couple shops in Denver. The point of this video and all of the words I said is to spotlight the fact that on the lowest parts over the past few months in my life…I found community and new people in my life.
I think it’s easy to forget that these local stores aren’t just businesses, they are the people working there…and the people that frequent them
As I write this, I’m still wrapping my head around the fact that two months have passed since my last update here. Life didn’t feel as hectic as I made it sound, but somehow time flew by between work & school, the gym, side-quest projects, and just balancing life.
I’ve still been creating videos and writing, even if I wasn’t posting here, and now I’ve turned autopilot off so…
The poem in the video was written about a breakup from years ago. I’m not lingering in that time, but recently I’ve been reflecting on my past and working through those moments. Looking back, I can see how they shaped me and helped guide me to the sense of tranquility I have now.
Of course, the words and the voice are all mine. I’ll be posting more throughout the weekend and getting back to a consistent schedule again. Feel free to explore the videos and writing here on the site. And follow along on my socials to keep in touch.
So last Saturday, I went to this shop that I go to all the time I’m close to everyone that works there but I had this conversation with somebody there…that was was brilliant and this video and everything I wrote about that that night reminds me that there are wonderful people hidden everywhere and this conversation reminded me that fantastic is all around you.
